Social ?

I am a part of 13 different WhatsApp groups, I have 700 friends on Facebook and numerous phone contacts yet I had to catch a Saturday night movie alone. Well sums it all up, doesn’t it?
We claim to have become more social with all these virtual media intruding our lives but trust me we have become anything but social.
     Another simple example where the other day we were making a one day trip plan in a WhatsApp group. After hours of discussion all we could concur was that everyone was to busy to arrive at a common consensus but had enough time to waste on this stupid app which if it didn’t exist could have led to us all meeting at some place and having this discussion.
     Sadly we’ve moved more apart and close. People have started to like the idea of posting a simple group message rather than actually hanging out with the group. These so called smartphones have done more bad than good. Facebook is a platform which we invented to connect with people but ironically it had a million privacy settings which helps us hide things from everyone. I don’t remember the last time I turned on Facebook chat because the very people I befriended, now I have no interest in talking to.
     I write this small piece because I have started to miss the point of all this social media and people are drifting away from me and probably each other. We need an intervention. We need to get back our lives. Hangout with people rather than being part of an online hangout. Trust me talking to people is much more fun that a group message. Watching your loved ones smile is more precious than a smiley.
     Its time we stop becoming slaves to the the technology we mastered. Its time we start living again, living the right way.

An Honest Confession

It is 5am here in India and I am wide awake. I dreamt of her. I saw her face as vivid as rhe first time we met, heard her voice as clear as it was when we first talked. She was right there but only as a dream, a beautiful nightmare.I have everything in life but peace. It’s the same story as half of you around the world have, we fall in love, spend time with them and then all of a sudden they decide to leave you for some absurd reason.
I was convinced she was the one. 3 years in a relationship and everyday I fell in love with the girl afresh. I fell in love with her smile, her innocence, her simplicity. For me putting a smile on her face was the ultimate goal. Never in my wildest dream had I ever thought the girl would leave but one fine day she did. Out of the blue and I neverI even saw it coming.
Its been a year an her memories still haunt me. Not that haven’t made honest attempts at moving on or getting my life started again, I swear to God I have. I’ve spent time with people, I’ve take breaks, tried going out again finding new love, spent more money than I have on things I don’t even need. I’ve never moved on ant this fear that I never will gives me a chill. This is an honest confession, a year on and many many attempts later I Still Lover Her…..

Random Thoughts

     Well I am back here after quite a while. Just having a whirlwind of thoughts in my mind at the moment which I feel like sharing, I know I am talking to people who I dont even know and probably don’t care either but this is place is as good as any to key-in m thoughts. Well, I am 25 and spent a Saturday all alone doing nothing. It’s probably not normal for guys of my age. But then I have friends who are either out of town or just too busy with their own lives to have sometime hangout. Now and then I have this feeling where I should probably find better friends or maybe as time passes I’ll get used to this life and make friends with this loneliness.

     Sitting alone I either spend time with my computer or just thinking about the gal who bailed out on me almost a  year back now. It’s funny how she said,”I love you. Tomorrow i’m going to talk to my parents about us.” The next day she broke up with me over a text saying she was not sure. I still somehow cannot figure out what I did wrong. I have moved to the category of people who are treated to the ‘buddy don’t worry you deserve better’ line ever since. She left a big void, I have problems filling. Her dumping me wasn’t my fault but being stuck over her when she has totally forgotten me is entirely my fault.I’m not dealing with this thing well. I don’t have people who are helping me out and it’s also that I am too scared to talk to people about this. In faking a smile and pretending i’m all ok I am  hurting myself within.

     I need to stop doing this to myself. Sure the future is scary but just because your afraid of moving on you cannot let yourself be haunted by your past. I don’t live there anymore. It’s simple but only my stupid heart doesn’t understand.